God has talked to me a lot over the months about my hearts cry. ‘Lord I want more and I want to be aware of more’ I would say, ‘more of your heart and voice, more of your presence, more of your power and authority’
I wonder if He pressed on my heart two things particularly.
Perhaps obvious to some.
“Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment.
I felt so challenged.
He and His wonderful presence needs to be my upmost priority.
I’ve heard the phrase ‘I will prioritise your presence at all costs’ it struck me that in CS Lewis’ Narnia, Aslan never shows up with no reason, always for a purpose, always with a plan and always for the absolute blessing and good of the children. Yet in my life I had almost become a bit numb to His presence. ‘Oh your there, that’s good lets press on with my agenda’ rather than stopping.
‘Stopping for the one’ to say ‘King of Kings, Lord of Lords you are here. I can sense it. How can I honour you in this moment?’ Even if it costs me my agenda, my schedule, my plan. I am beginning to understand that’s where the increase lies.
So first on my agenda for 2015: finding new ways, new times to increase my loving on Him and begin sharpening my awareness and practice of His presence. Like a blunt pencil used for the wrong thing I’m going back to my original purpose and the master sharpener.
Second on my agenda for 2015:
NIV: Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves.
MSG: Love from the center of who you are; don’t fake it. Run for dear life from evil; hold on for dear life to good. Be good friends who love deeply; practice playing second fiddle.
2nd was checking my heart, repenting and practicing the honour of others like my life depended on it.
Understanding that the encouragement and release of them doesn’t relegate my purpose or vision – in fact quite the opposite.
Honour is a verb. It means to hold in high esteem but also can be seen in terms of a contract:
to fulfil, observe, keep, discharge, implement, perform, execute, effect, obey, heed, follow, carry out, abide by, adhere to, comply with, conform to, act in accordance with, be true to, be faithful to, live up to;
Being a verb it’s something we chose, something we practice. A discipline if you like, that not only is important in our family, our own church but in the wider body and our neighbours.
We don’t need relationship with others to honour.
It’s not based on our agreement or connection it’s based on our understanding that God has made each of us as His workmanship.
I’ve heard it said that Godly confrontation leaves the person more encouraged more aware of who they are in God than when you begun. I felt challenged on when my own hurt has tempted me to be led down a path of mistrust, resentment and rejection of others.
I’ve also heard it said that the Holy Spirit does not do well with dishonour. That’s a terrifying thought for my heart longs for His power, His presence.
So I am in this place.
The place where I will love Him and practice the honour of others – striving in this like my life depended on it.
As if revival depended on it. As if the salvation of others depended on it. As if my own and my family’s destiny and dreams depended on it.